Scatterbrain
by Lindsay Fisher-Collie
Disclaimer: This post is more than likely going to turn into an incoherent, rambling mess. Wine has been consumed, and you've been warned.
Blogging friends! I miss you. I miss my blog. Graduate school started last week, and I am officially going crazy! I have too much on my plate and the semester has just begun. I don't know how people do it. Juggling all these things at once. Especially those with kids, multiple jobs, any sort of social life. I guess it's a matter of being organized, efficient, and motivated? Yes, that is a question, not a statement. I'm generally perplexed as to how people do it. Here's the deal- I've only been out of school for a little over 3 years, I have no children, I work part-time, I don't have many friends (Wow, I sound like a loser, hah). Seems like a pretty ideal situation for someone starting back to school, right? Not too many attachments or engagements. But I'm still going crazy! What is wrong with me? Here's how I'm justifying this ridiculousness- for the past three years I've been a free bird, so to speak. I've had no significant obligations or attachments, just simple part-time jobs that didn't require too much extra of me. That's it. The problem with this is that I've gotten lazy. I do what I want, when I want. I thrift every day of the week if I feel like it. I drink wine every night if I feel like it. I blog when I feel like it. I read when I feel like it. But things are changing, and I think it's going to be good for me. Things are required of me now. In order to succeed, I'm going to have to exert some effort. Turns out group work is a huge component of this program, so I'm not only held accountable for myself, but also for my group. This is quite different than what I'm used to. I'm excited. Anxious, not eager. And nervous. I guess it makes sense that I'm freaking out about all of this because of my lack of obligation at this time. Maybe that's the key to juggling a busy life successfully...you simply don't have enough time to think about the craziness, you just do it. Phew. I've talked myself in circles to the point of thinking I've actually figured everything out. I guess it's time to call it a night, huh. Thanks for listening to my ramblings. I hope to be back to normal posting of thrift finds, outfits and whatnot soon. <3
good luck with grad school!!! I don't see a lot of my friends that are in grad school...they are always working on their thesis. So I hope you can enjoy yourself once in a while at least! anddd upate your blog as well :)
ReplyDeleteoh, sorry, i got distracted by the cute German on my TV, playing tennis.
ReplyDeletenow, back to you...
you aren't a loser.
you are creative.
i've discovered (decided?) that artistic people aren't the best for organization and staying on target with schedules. we are easily distracted by the many things we want to create, do, or look at. and our brains are too full of pictures, poems and ideas to squish in a lot of time oriented have to's.
so, give yourself a break and hang in there. you're just - oh Tommy Haas...yummm - an artist trying to get through school.
cheers.
(and let's hang out!)
it is your first week so of course it is gonna feel crazy but once you get into the swing of things it will be great. i know you can do it :D
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Good luck sweetie!! I am sure all will pan out!! xoxo
ReplyDeleteYou know you aren't as scatterbrained as you think you are. It may feel like that, but once you start your thoughts you are actually pretty clear. That being said, don't worry so much and stop spinning circles around yourself! You have alot of adjustments to your life right now, but my grandmother always said: "Life is nothing but a series of adjustments.."
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